A Love Letter to Letting Go…

Moving on from relationships is hard, but moving on from a business? Proved to be far more challenging for me. It was the Monday of 20 May, when I was kicked out of a partnership on a group chat with other business associates. Just some 24 hours ago, we were sitting in the office—sorting our accounts, discussing strategies, and laughing over a cup of coffee. It hit me like a truck in my face—I was devastated. We had been working together for 4 months, and things were looking good. I owned a small piece of the pie, but I was content—I was growing: intellectually, mentally, and financially, and the stakes had never been this high.

I did what any 24-year-old would do—venture out on a solo trip in lieu of gaining clarity. Personally, I ended up with more anxiety than ever, which led me to work on my resume while on the trip. It might work for some people, but it didn’t for me. I just could not leave everything behind.  

6 months later, I was in debt due to the losses in the same business that I ran solo & at my lowest level of confidence. Nothing was working out, and I had to decide, again, to stay in a field I had given 5 years of my life to, polymers, or move on. And move on to what? – Another such business, or a job? In which field? Doing what? Which city? Who would even hire an entrepreneur generalist who failed? 

In the end, I did decide to move on from Polymers, and that’s exactly why I am writing this. As much as I wanted to, I just could not make things work. The decision was super hard and mentally taxing, but I had to choose & stick with it.

The kid who had it all figured out—a business at 20, earning significantly more than his peers—was now jobless, in debt with fucked-up mental health, & without a clear path forward. Such is the path entrepreneurs follow—euphoric highs and rock-bottom lows. 

I write this to free myself from all the baggage I have carried—what others would think of me, wrong decisions that I made, misjudgments, but achievements too.
I FAILED, but I am owning it. I am not giving up. The best advice I got during this time was to keep my head down, gain my confidence and strike 10x harder when things align. The entrepreneur in me isn’t going anywhere. It’s here to stay. 🙂

This is me. Starting fresh, so much so that I even changed my name—Mriddul Aanaand (silent cries ;_;, this was a trade with my parents, and it just fits here nicely, haha).

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